I meet new people everyday. Wonderful people. Beautiful people.
I meet mean people too but will pretend as if I don’t.
I meet people who I think to myself, “this person would make a really cool friend”. Like a friend. Not just someone who is a ‘friend’ on facebook. I am just not sure it is a good idea for me to have more friends.
My current friends tell me that I am giving, thoughtful and caring. So sweet huh? The truth is, I let them all down. At some point.
We all do. I think. Hell that would suck if I was the only one.
I say something stupid and later wish I could grab it from the universe and shove it back down my pie-hole. Or I become inconsiderate and selfish. Forget that I have a friend with a very sick father and ask her how he is doing. Support her. Instead I just…forget. I fail to invite someone to something via that evite thing and a day before the event realize it and try to invite her.. that goes over well. I forgot. Truly. Who forgets these things? Who says stupid and mean things? Me.
I don’t really truly mean to do this.
Yes, I can let people down. Or disappoint them.
I have also been let down and disappointed. That darn word: expectation.
I am working on my own expectations so as not to be let down or disappointed as often and instead think forgiveness and love. Don’t I wish that forgiveness and love is what my friend is thinking when I plum forget her birthday (thank you facebook for saving me with this one A LOT)? Besides, forgiveness and love feel better, right?
So maybe I ought to make 3×5 cards to hand to new friends. A warning of sorts? Maybe it would look like this:
I want to be a good friend. But I probably won’t succeed all the time. I will actually suck at it sometimes. I will let you down. But other times I won’t. I will love you too. And I am not an evil serial killer. Do you still want to be my friend? Circle yes or no below.
Not sure that will do the trick. But could give it a shot.